Journey of a Dream

Yet another Christmas had passed. For the first time in 3 years, I celebrated Christmas in a church service. The candles that all of us lit up were so pretty!! This year I didn't get to celerate with Siew Lee like how we had last year. But it's ok. Still manage to catch up with my Form 6 friends. After service, Nickey, Yee Lin, Theen Kin and I went to do last minute shopping at Pyramid. Towards the end, I was dead tired as the night before I stayed up late to write personal messages, so we went to Starbucks!! This time I collected enough stickers to get the planner(the barista gave me extra stickers). So I was beaming with joy as I held it close to my chest. Sadly, it is now gone again. Hopefully I will get a new one tomorrow. This year, I spent a lot of money on gifts. However, there were still not enough gifts to go with. In the end, I gave away some of the gifts that I received. It's not being insincere. In fact it was hard to part with my gifts, but it's always good to give.


Ally - A pretty bracelet
Yee Lin - Christmas candy and chocolates
Eng Kim - A bar of soap
Nickey - A magnet with my name on it
Alan - Famous Amos cookies with a bear
Lee Lian - a sleeveless top
Bros - cash
Calvin - a card all the way from Kuantan
Ivan - a cute candlestand

Siew Lian and Siew Lee wrote something about friendship, and like her, that word just keeps popping on my head. Sometimes I just feel down right lonely, even though I have many friends. And among the big pool of friends that I have, there are few that stand out among the rest. I have a fear that I will lose them along the way. Because all my life, that is what happened and it is inevitable that it will keep on happening. I admit that I am not the nicest person to be with. Sometimes I talk to much, sometimes I am sarcastic, sometimes I am moody, sometimes I expect too much. It takes so much time to get acquinted with someone, and harder to keep the friendship, but it only takes a tiny misunderstanding and a little can't - be - bothered attitude to lose a person. A few years back, I was very much a task oriented person. I was more interested in finishing the job and I didn't care about other people. But I realize that life is really about relationship. About people. Just imagine your career is booming, you have got nice car and nice clothes, everything else is perfect...except that you have got no family, no friends, nobody to share your life with. Most of us won't give a thought on this because we often take people around us for granted. So here, I want to thank my friends who make my life in small and great ways. And the apreciation goes to:

• My coursemates; particularly to Karen and Sau Han. When I first came to uni, I thought I would be alone for the next 3 years as the result of language barrier. But it did not.. things started to improve in second year. Our friendship flourished beyond simbiosis and beyond the gates of uni. I love to hang out at Starbucks with you guys!!
• Siew Lee - Thank you so much for listening to my daily ramblings. When things go bad, I know it can't go too bad... because you are always there to listen and I am not alone to go through it. Think about it, we have known each other for almost 10 years. How many people who were friends with you 10 yrs ago is still your friend today?
• Steph - The one thing that we have in common is our liking in dogs. Especially a dog by the name of Oreo. One year, she bought me a cute bear wearing glasses as Christmas gift and I can still remember until today, cos up to then, I hardly receive cuddly stuff as gifts. Another year, she gave me a "moon" that says "to a person with a heart of gold". She is the one with a heart of gold
• Alan - I just love this guy and distance never seem to be a barrier to our friendship. He's got a huge heart and I never regret doing LI there cos that is how I met Alan. He is ever helpful and ready. When I had hemorrhage, he took me to the hospital and waited for hours. He knew I had no money, yet he took me out to the most expensive entertainemnt in KL just to cheer me up
• Nickey - This guy and I are so familiar with each other and it is a normal thing to pick up his call at the middle of the night. We always have this peer talk and our mamaking sessions can end quite late. When he anounced that he was going to stay back in JB, my heart almost dropped! For different visions sake, I gotta let him go.
• Jolene - Our friendship could be traced back to Form 6. At first I felt doomed because by then, my group of friends were at colleges and I was stuck at La Salle PJ alone. Going to school was not a dread with Jolene around. She always had ways to entertain me and school was never boring with her around. So in the end, it was good 2 years. Never underestimate the things that she can do. She still surprises me until today.
• Yee Lin - What more do I have to say about this girl? She is a famous figure in my family now. She's soft and approachable, and very the senang dibuli. OK la I where got that cruel to bully her. Have to sayang her otherwise I'll be chased

It's been two weeks since exams ended. I know I wrote about Genting, did I mention about having Oreo over? It was so sweet to have Oreo again? It is so comfortable to have Oreo on my bed. Too bad the fun times ended for a day. My aunt and her children came over to stay for almost a week, so I had to send Oreo home ASAP to avoid more arguements. So I ONLY had Oreo for 3 days. My heart felt heavy as I parted with my little furry thing. Last night I dreamt that my baby went missing. Thank goodness it was only a dream.

So along with that, I bunked at Siew Lee's place over the weekend. We had salmon and margaritas at Friday's, and we were supposed to meet Lai Yee but she had something up, so we couldn't meet up. The mat salleh bartender was so cute, he had this ohm hairstyle and he smiled at me! So I smiled back at him sheepishly. Shy la.. When we got ready to go, he asked for my number!! So my charm still works huh??!!

When we got back Siew Lee started playing the keyboard and I sang along. When she couldn't play anymore, we just sang some more on the bed. Songs like Thank You for the Cross, So Close, God Will Make a Way and As the Deer. It really brings back a lot of memories.

As the deer panteth for the water.. is this how much I want God today? The song went on.. I want you more than gold or silver... the apple of my eye..I love You more than any other So much more than anything. More than anything? There is simply too many things that I want today. I want this, I want that, I am too greedy. I could go on and on blaming circumstances and the complexicity of life, but I know, the problem is myself. I don't know what went wrong along the way.

I thought I would never get tired going out, but I did. I went out with different people for next consequtive days, and at the end of it, I got physically worked out. But it was so good, there were so many ppl that I hardly get to spend time with.

Tuesday: Met up with the Form 6 people; Jol, HJ and JJ. Went to Starbucks to have Toffee Nut. When Jol and I got enough of Mid Valley, we went to 1 Utama to catch Flushed Away.

Wednesday: Yee Lin and I ACTUALLY took bus to 1 Utama. We claimed the free fajitas... but not so free after all.. cos we ordered fish and chips... but at a reasonably cheap price considering it was Friday's.

Thursday: Went to UM to look for lecturer, but as typical UM lecturer, she gave that "Don't be stupid" look. I went to Bendahari to ask for the cheque that UM still owes me, but the guy asked me to come another day cos the system just got upgraded that day and it needed time to stabilize. After lunch at Caffe 1920, Stefanie and I watched Dejavu at Cineplex D'sara on the day of its opening.

Friday: Back to chap fan again. I am eyeing restaurants like Italiannes, Sakae Sushi and Marche, but till then, I have to get back to work.